Feeling like a Ghost in October 2024

Hi everyone,

I started this website to collect some of my writings and I haven’t blogged anything personal in awhile. As some of you might be following, I do write movie reviews and do interviews for newspaper Salom. And I also continue with our Podcast series “Searching for Goodness” that can be found both on YouTube to watch or to listen it is available wherever you get your Podcasts such as Apple or Spotify.

Aside from that I am in the writing of a book series which started as “I got the Blues” then I added other colors to it and I believe the series is going to be called “I got the Books” in 7 colors then black & white. I think of a book series of 9 in this collection. I will let you all know when it is published and available.

Aside from these writings, I realized that I have forgotten about blogging. And what better day is to start again than now? What should I write about? There is so many topics go through my mind.

In Turkey, my homeland, they are picking up dogs from the streets and killing them. Every time I see news about this, my heart is breaking. I want to do a shout out to all animal rights activists and supporters to be a voice in this matter. #animalrights

Then there is still wars going on the world which we keep hearing about but can’t seem to do nothing. We hear innocent people on both sides getting harmed and killed everyday and we silently, numbly watch. We try to tune it out sometimes because we need to keep working to survive and go on with our lives. After all one way or another, we are all survivors in this world. I do wish for #love and #peace. I’d like #humanity to reach a level of no more wars.

Political debates are ongoing as voting time is creeping in November. I believe even indecisive voters made up their minds by now. We will all see what happens. #politics Hope we can all get along despite our differences of opinions.

I see many sad crimes in the news which I can’t do nothing about. I try to avoid looking at tv or the news. I wish I was a super hero, full time helping out people in need. Particularly animals, children, women, old people, poor.

We can create a better world, can’t we?

How is that possible?

I believe it starts first within us. We need to take care of health and well being with exercise, doing creative things, producing, culturing ourselves and spending quality time with our loved ones. It also starts with our relationships with other people. As there is a saying “Peace at home, peace in the world.”

Lately, I have been saddened about a matter I haven’t mentioned on social media before. However I can’t hold it in anymore. People came up with terms of “individualism” “boundaries” “ghosting” “ignoring” and in our culture, some think these are cool things to do. I think these are very hurtful, selfish things.

If someone opens up their heart to you, trusts you and shares their life with you, there is nothing cool about turning your back to that person all of a sudden. All the problems start with not communicating. Ghosting and ignoring someone really hurts and damages a person’s psychology, breaks their heart. We are all connected spiritually. I’ve been really hurt by a friend who ghosted me recently. I really was not expecting that. I think having good company is very important.

We all make mistakes. Sometimes we can’t find the right words to say or the way we act might not be perceived as normal. However I try to always be there for my friends as much as possible. At times if I get upset with them, I talk it out. However friendships are both sided. If one person keeps trying, communicating and realizes they are talking to a cold wall, it really doesn’t help. I do feel like a ghost.

Everything I put out there is coming from one ear going out from the next. When there is already enough problems in the world and in our lives, I really would like to shout out to all the people not to do this to one another. We should always communicate and express our thoughts and feelings. It might take time sometimes for people to change, we should be patient & tolerant, give it time. I hope peace in this friendship. I don’t want to feel like a ghost on haunting. I would like to be heard and know that I am heard and reached out back at. I had these periods with some of my close friends.

Eventually we talked again and everything was good again. I do hope this will be the case. I do hope for this to be a temporary heartbreak. And I am not being ghosted just glitching. I try not to fall into a deep depression, mild is enough. I do hope love and peace in friendships. Hope we stop putting up walls, build bridges. The more we communicate and help, support each other out that love and peace will spread.

It’s going to spread to the world like light. We will stand up against wars, animal cruelty, crimes together instead of crossing with one another.

I do apologize for my mistakes in front of the world. I keep working hard and trying to make myself, my life and the world I live in better one day at a time. Thanks for reading dear reader instead of scrolling on your social media or watching tv. Appreciate your eyes and thoughts on this.